Irrfan Khan’s wife Sutapa Sikdar says that her temporal relationship with the latter actor has continued even after her death. “There are things where I suddenly feel like everything is the same. He is around, he is not just physically present, ”Sutapa told the Times of India.
Irfan, who was killed on April 29, 2020, is still remembered by his fans worldwide. But Sutapa said that she is taking time to deal with her absence. In the same interview, he said, “Loneliness is very strong. Because we were not very social, we did not have many friends. We were always a two-man unit. He would come back from shooting and we would watch a movie or talk. So it revolves around that. It is very difficult to trace life without him. “
Speaking about a cosmic relationship with Irrfan, Sutapa said how she still feels his presence around her. He told TOI, “We both loved the rain. And we would both joke – if it was too hot … and it would rain the next day. When I went to Jaipur, it was a very hot day – and then, that night, it rained! What a strange feeling. Then, while I was traveling back on the Jaipur-Mumbai highway, Google Maps told us that it was congested and suggested an alternate route. It was an unfamiliar street, and then I was like – Oh my God! We are going from Tonk! Tonk is the place where he was. I get hints of being around him, ”she shared.
Sutapa further revealed that the family was not prepared for the death as their report had improved over the past few months. They were also planning a vacation for two months before Irfan’s death. “He was no longer afraid of death. Yet of course he wanted to live. He wanted to grow a forest, did a lot of social work. “
The actor had plans to do a project in a year, and even to launch son Babil into a film, which he either wanted to play or wanted to act. Sutapa said, “I don’t think he wanted to act so much anymore. Because he started enjoying this time. We spent time with the kids and did everything we didn’t have for a long time because he Was so busy. “
Sutapa also revealed that Irfan was not a Muslim, but he was also not a non-believer. He believed in a god. Therefore, even he never converted.
“He was on a journey of discovering things greater than this world, himself, this world, parallel reality, parallel world. Religion for him was spirituality. During this period, he read Upanishads, Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, Vivekananda … but he was never a ‘religious’ person.