Late actor Irrfan Khan’s wife Sutapa Sikdar has lost herself after the actor’s death and how she has been unable to cope with the loss. Sutapa and Irrfan met when they were both at the National School of Drama. Irfan died on April 29, 2020, after a long battle with neuroendocrine tumors.
In a highly emotional interview with the film Companion, Sutapa described how Irrfan was anxious about death and what happens after life. She said that after the cancer was diagnosed, she thought that she might have pulled death towards her.
“He was very curious about death from the day we met. He comes from a Muslim family, I come from a Hindu background but I never had a natal chart. It is all Irfan’s; He made my horoscope. His point for astrology was not about what would happen to his career, but he was curious to know what would happen in the next life. He was very curious about it. He messaged Anoop in London asking if he was drawing death to himself. Suthapa said, death had become like his playmate.
Sutapa said that Irfan needed 24/7 during treatment. He remembered that before going to the hospital, he had assured her that everything was fine. “He is telling me – ‘Otherwise it is.’ Without any grief or anger. There was no resentment on his face. I remember so clearly, sitting on the edge of the bed, he was very weak. I put him in his trousers, combed his hair. He sat down. Gone, he grabbed my hand and got up. We hugged each other. There was no time for a second. There was no intuition saying that I would not come back. “
“For him, I don’t think he thought the time had come. He was reading books and planning movies with Babil. He was planning every tree we would plant, which I am doing right now. Am. Everything. I don’t know, I sometimes feel that I’m guilty that I had so much faith in him, what I gave him was, ‘Whatever it is, Chief Sambhal Lungi’. He believed in me a lot. , ”Said Sutapa.
Babylon also narrated her last moments with her ‘Baba’ Irrfan Khan. “I was in the hospital for the last two days. He was losing consciousness. He just looked at me, smiled and said, ‘I’m going to die.’ And I said, ‘No, you’re not.’ He then smiled and went back to sleep. But I really feel like he surrendered completely. I think there are no words to achieve that kind of development. “
Babil said that he learned to love selflessly with his mother Sutapa, who gave him 24 and a half years to Irfan. Recounting his efforts, Babil becomes emotional and what he did for Irrfan is something no human would ever do for another.